Hi! I’m Ivy.
I have a heart for empowering women with broken spirits, broken hearts and broken relationships. I love getting to know people deeply and building relationships of depth and honesty. Including with myself. I am fully embracing and loving the journey of life with all its many seasons.
Are you feeling a little too old? A little too young? A little too fat? A little too skinny? A little too ugly? Maybe a little too pretty? Too smart, too dumb, too plain, too loud? How about in simple terms- a little too insecure? Have you been wondering if those thoughts and feelings will ever go away?
In the search of my intention for this year, when I would quiet my heart and mind, balance was the word that would continually arise.
Reflection has proved my life to be so far out of balance. It’s become immersed in career and books. I wanted to believe that this was a healthy, productive imbalance- it sounded like a good imbalance. However, when I started being honest with myself I realized that I have used my career and my love for learning as a way to hide behind the pains of life and the insecurities that those pains have created within.
I feel the imbalance. I feel the insecurities. I still very much feel the pains.
How did I become aware of the imbalance? Discontentment flooded my soul.
As I begin (notice the word begin) to be real with myself about my discontentment, I ask myself, “Is there more for my life? How did I get here?”. More importantly, “How do I move out of this space? How do I move this discontented energy out of my space?”
Balance. Seek balance.
I realize if I do that then I will feel my vulnerability. I will feel my fears. I will feel my….feelings? Oh, that which I have so been avoiding. I can choose to stay here in this place of discontentment, insecurity and imbalance, or I can open up the doors and windows to the limitless possibilities that will bring light and love back into my life.
The cold, dormant season came, and soon the season will change. As spring arrives, I will have prepared for a new season to come. A season of growth, light, color, warmth and excitement.
Time for preparation is now- to find my balance, which will remove the incessant chatter of insecurities and fears. Preparation consists of having an intentional, willing, open heart as well as an openness to embrace all the goodness that this wondrous life has to offer. Life naturally provides balance.
It is time to for me to quit hiding! It is time for me to find a balance. Is it your time too?